Tuesday 18 October 2011

...playing with numbers...

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Monday 17 October 2011

On dreams...

Dreams...in wikipedia dreams are successions of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations that occur involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep

Dreams mainly occur in the rapid-eye movement (REM) stage of sleep—when brain activity is high.

Dreams are a connection to the human subconscious. They can range from normal and ordinary to overly surreal and bizarre. Dreams can often at times make a creative thought occur to the person or give a sense of inspiration.

Dreamers are usually not self-aware in their dreams; thus the dreams may seem very real to them while asleep.


Panaginip sa tagalog...lahat tayo nananaginip...tulog o gising...madalas ako sa ganitong estado...parating nananaginip...

Kilala nyo na siguro kung sino ang napapanaginipan ko kaya hindi ko na kailangan pang banggitin pa kung sinu sya...basta ang alam ko sya ang kadalasang laman ng mga panaginip ko...makailang beses ko na rin syang napanaginipan kahit na hindi naman sya ang huling nasa isipan ko bago ako matulog...

...napanaginipan nanaman kita...di ko na matandaan...basta ang alam ko nagtatawanan tayo...(oo patay na patay ako sa tawa mo., ahehehe., di ko rin alam kung bakit eh., basta alam ko gustong gusto ko ung tawa mo.,)


...ilang araw nanaman kitang napanaginipan...(medyo nakakalimutan ko kasi ung mga panaginip ko eh!)...natatandaan ko dun sa panaginip para tayong nasa classroom tapos dumating ka...tapos ang alam ko may tinanong ako sa nun eh...tapos bigla kayong umalis ni [kulit] tapos baba ng hagdan...sumunod lang ung tingin ko sayo...tapos kinausap ko ung classmate ko nung college (na nasa panaginip din)...ang sabi ko sa kanya di ko na kaya...


...napanaginipan nanaman kita nung isang araw...pumayag ka daw na isama ako sa pupuntahan mo...(basta ayun...too much detail na kasi kapag sinabi ko pa kung saan)...


...ang alam ko dalawang bese kitang napanaginipan kanina di ko lang natandaan ung una...(adik lang?)...kaya ung panagalawa ni-save ko sa CP ko...ganito daw yun...nasa [lugar] daw tayong dalawa tapos parang pauwi na tayo (sa kung saan man galing)...tapos may bago raw akong gamit sabi mo sa akin patingin edi binigay ko sayo...tapos sumakay na daw ako ng jeep tapos ikaw hindi sumakay...nakita ko na hindi ka sumakay tapos naalala ko rin na ung gamit ko nasa iyo pa...bumaba ako ng jeep tapos binalikan kita tapos parang tinatanong ko sayo kung nasan na ung gamit ko tapos niloloko mo ako na wala sayo...yun pala nilagay mo sa bag mo...(nagkasya ung malaking gamit ko dun sa bag mo., ahehehe)...

...napanaginipan nanaman kita...bakit ba kasi ayaw mong mawala, pati sa panaginip ko ayaw mong mawala...Hindi ko alam kung hanggang sa panaginip ikaw pa rin ang iniisip ko pero hindi na kasi tama...ilang beses na kasi kitang napapanaginipan...yung ilang beses na yun eh hindi naman pare-pareho...meron time na yung panaginip ko ay ikaw lang at mga taong di ko kilala...pero ung kanina naman parang nasa isang school tapos marami akong kakilala...(baka ipapakilala na kita sa kanila? jokes)...ewan ko ba...bakit ikaw napapanaginipan ko?...


...napanaginipan ulit kita...parang galing tayo sa mall/ospital tapos kasama natin si [master], basta ikaw nagda-drive...pagdating natin dun sa pupuntahan bumaba kayo...tapos meron akong sinabi dun sa isang kasama natin...baka magalit ka...


...nung isang linggo lang napanaginipan kita ulit...ang nangyari naman eh si [Stuagin on] eh inaagaw sa akin si [insert name here](ikaw to!) at si [miss baet]...ahehehe...wala lang...


tapos nung saturday lang napanaginipan ulit kita...nasa ospital daw si [kulit] tapos parang naiinis ka sa akin di ko alam kung bakit...ayun....parang may something between the two of you eh...ahehehe...


Speaking of dreams...ilang beses na akong nananaginip ng puro ahas...dun nga nagsimula ung pagiging takot ko sa ahas kahit sa TV ko lang nakikita...basta ayaw ko...so nag search ako tungkol dun at ito ang nakita ko...

To see a snake or be bitten by one in your dream, signifies hidden fears and worries that are threatening you.  Your dream may be alerting you to something in your waking life that you are not aware of or that has not yet surfaced. Alternatively, the snake may be seen as phallic and thus symbolize temptation, dangerous and forbidden sexuality. In particular, to see a snake on your bed, suggests that you are feeling sexually overpowered or sexually threatened. You may be inexperienced, nervous or just unable to keep up. If you are afraid of the snake, then it signifies your fears of sex, intimacy or commitment. The snake may also refer to a person around you who is callous, ruthless, and can't be trusted. As a positive symbol, snakes represent healing, transformation, knowledge and wisdom. It is indicative of self-renewal and positive change. 

To see the skin of a snake in your dream, represents protection from illnesses.

To see a snake with a head on each end in your dream, suggests that you are being pulled in two different directions. You are feeling overburdened and do not know whether you are coming or going. Your actions are counterproductive. Perhaps the dream represents some complicated love triangle. Alternatively, the dream signifies your desires for children. If you see a two-headed snake in your dream, then it refers to cooperation and teamwork in some relationship.


To dream that you are eating a live snake, indicates that you are looking for intimacy or sexual fulfillment. Your life is lacking sensuality and passion. If you vomit or throw up the snake, then it may mean that you are overcompensating for something that is lacking in your life. You may be rushing into something.


isa pang bagay na related sa dreams ay ang daydreaming...na according to wikipedia again...(para kunyari matalino)...

A daydream is a visionary fantasy, especially one of happy, pleasant thoughts, hopes or ambitions, imagined as coming to pass, and experienced while awake.


magaling ako dito...as in...kahit dilat na dilat ako eh todo todong pagdadaydream na ang ginagawa ko...pati nga lang ung paglalakad ko minsan pauwi sa bahay may kasamang daydream...kahit minsan din kasama ko mga kaibigan ko bigla bigla na lang ako magdadaydream...kung subject lang yan noong college malamang naging Summa Cum Laude ako...o kaya kung profession yan baka isa na ako sa mga pinakamagaling dyan...ahehehe...


o sya...kailangan ko pa ulit managinip...see you there...ahehehe...

Thursday 13 October 2011

Pero bakit nga ba?...

Nung isang araw napagtripan ko nanaman manlibre sa kadahilanang hindi ko mawari., Hindi ko mawari kasi di ko talaga alam kung bakit ko ba naisipan na mag-ayang kumain sa labas noong isang araw...

Alam ko sa sarili ko na talagang naisipan ko lang din bigla yung pangyayari, pero napaisip lang ako sa mga bagay bagay nung may isang kasama akong magtanong kung bakit nga ba ako nanlibre...at isang nakakag@gong ngiti ung pinakita nya sa akin...

Bakit nga ba?....anu nga ba ang dahilan ng pabigla bigla kong pag-aaya?...meron nga bang dahilan ang "wala lang" at "trip ko lang"?...mga dahilang parati kong binibitawan sa harap ng maraming taong nagtatanong ng "Bakit"...

"Wala lang"...bakit yan nga ba ang parati kong naisasagot sa mga kausap ko....marahil ay ayaw ko lang palawakin pa ang topic ng pag-uusap dahil sa hindi ako kumportable sa pinag-uusapan...marahil hindi ko lang talaga alam kung anu ang isasagot ko...marahil hindi ko inasahan na tatanungin ako ng ganung tanong at walang pumasok sa isip ko para masagot ito...o marahil merong mas malalim na kadahilanan kung bakit kadalasan ay iyon na lang ang naisasagot ko...

Bakit ko nga ba ginagawa iyon?...ungbigla biglang pag-aaya...Ano ang mga posibleng dahilan ng paggawa ko nun?...

NAGMAMAYABANG?...hindi naman...never akong naging mayabang sa kahit na anong bagay...hindi ko kailan man ipinagyabang ang kung anu man ang meron ako sa lahat ng tao...(di ko sure kung ako lang) pero para sa akin never akong naging mayabang...sa katunayan nga eh sobrang mahiyain pa nga ako...as in sobrang mahiyain....inaamin ko na meron akong inferiority complex...never kong nakita ang sarili ko na naging superior sa kahit na sinong nilalang...ito rin siguro ang dahilan kung bakit ako mahiyain...

NAGMAMAYAMAN?...ito ang isang napakalaking kasinungalingan...hindi ako kailan man naging mayaman...hindi ko rin naman masasabi na may kaya kami dahil hindi ganoon kaginhawa ang buhay namin...kung minsan ay kinakapos pa rin ang naibibigay ko sa bahay...hehehe...so definitely hindi ako nagmamayaman...


NAPROMOTE?...nope...isang malaking HINDI!!!!!...wish ko lang na magkatotoo ito...kaya lang mas malabo pa sa tubig ng ilog pasig yan...buti kong talagang ung mga task ko eh pag-kabog na sa mga seniors...ahehehe...so ito ay isang malaking HINDI!...


NA-INCREASE-AN?...isa pang napakalaking HINDI...asa naman ako na tumaas ang sahod ko no...sintagal ng isang century egg pa yata mangyayari ang milagrong iyan...ahehehe...pero inaasahan ko ito...pero sa ngayun ay hindi...hindi pa tumataas ang sahod ko...how I wish...ahehehe....


GALANTE?...hindi din(yata)...hindi ko niconsider na isang galanteng tao ako...ahehehe...meron pa rin dyan magsasabi na kuripot ako...ahehehe...


GALIT SA PERA?...medyo lang pero hindi pa naman siguro ako baliw para magalit ng ganun sa pera...ahehehe...


DEPRESSED?...hindi din...actually, lately masaya na ako...medyo nagkakasapak na lang ako kapag may mga bagay bagay na naaalala...


EH BAKIT NGA BA?...


BAKIT NGA BA?...


Hindi ko pa rin kayang sagutin yan...ahehehe...pero isa lang ang masasabi ko...iisa lang ang dahilan ng lahat...at isang tao pa lang ang nakakaalam ng kasagutan sa tanong na iyan...at hindi nya naitanong sa akin ang "Bakit nga ba?"...nagpost lang sya ng kung anu man at noong mabasa ko yun ay tagus-tagusan akong tinamaan...ahehehe...


anu nga ba?... BAKIT NGA BA?..."wala lang"

Tuesday 4 October 2011

Just killing time...

I was always talking to myself and pretending that everything is now OK. But, I have been smiling (at times laughing) a lot lately and that's a big improvement in me since i have been this emo guy for the past couple of months.

I have been reading back my journal here at the office and i realized that I have been like that for almost four months now (good thing i decided to stop that nonsense act of mine). It was so stupid of me to let this be like this for sooooo long. As my previous posts have revealed to one of my friend, so he said, the possible identity of [insert name here] (i can't name drop here) i have come to a conclusion that i should not be hiding that anymore since the whole world could read my blog. And that anybody can do what my friend did....INVESTIGATE...well come to think of it, i have been throwing tons and tons of clue about the identity of [insert name here].

"Ask me and I'll answer it!" that's my new motto. Ask me anything  and i'll admit to it if it is true. No denying of anything.

Just like what I did with one of my office friend when she asked me who [insert name here] was. I gave the name away, but that took a lot of my guts to do. I mean it was just a name but I am the one at stake here. Its the whole me we are talking about here and I ain't just be giving you details that could make or break me (well break me for the most part).

After her so much shock about [insert name here] it became just like another normal conversation between us. At least now i can directly talk to her about [insert name here] without having to mask [insert name here]'s identity.

Another thing...I let my friend from other project read my journal and he said that some of the entries are "kilig moments". I mean the journal is about me and [insert name here] and our encounters . To me it was just foolish entries I can't imagine until now that there are some "kilig moments" there.

hehehehehe...that just about it., I can't think of anything to write anymore...

oh! another thing...my friends here are wondering if I am "nagtatampo" but I am not..."Wala naman akong dapat ika-tampo"...I just have to balance time between everyone...hehehe...hope this answers the BIG QUESTION...