tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10092427120161243492024-03-05T00:30:33.721-08:00AphorismsTAKE ME AS I AM...OR LEAVE ME AS I WAS...Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.comBlogger49125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-30137132554090251892013-08-13T07:08:00.001-07:002013-08-13T07:15:35.421-07:00Deep Inside...<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Last time I've posted here was I think last year...an entry that I requested my friend to post for me...if my memory serves me correctly the post was mostly about me saying goodbye to someone...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Well 7 months have passed by and here I am...getting back together with my pen and paper (metaphorically speaking)...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Except for the fact that I am in a new company now...nothing really changed...still the same old me...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Since I left my previous company...i know that I am leaving behind a lot of thing...a lot of memories that I have shared with my friends...the people who truly knew who I was...not the one I am pretending to be...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I really don't know what's gotten into me again lately...but I know I have been like this before...not to my amusement, i have been feeling down for the nth time...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">It's like i don't know how to feel the word H-A-P-P-Y...yes! my exterior looks very jolly and very much smiley smiley...but I know deep inside that that is not what i'm genuinely feeling...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I just don't want to talk about these since I know that it wouldn't even nudge someone and come talk to me for a minute...that sincere talk where i can just let everything out..every single sigh that I have...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I don't really know...I don't know what I want at the moment...Maybe if someone would approach me, to try and reach out, I know I would just push them away cause I really don't know what or why...such a contradiction to what I was previously saying above...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I just really don't know...just don't...i hope I can find answers in the coming days...ai hope that someone could shed some light so that I can see where I am headed...what I want...what I really long for...cause slowly my insides are deteriorating...it eats itself up...slowly...and painfully...and fast...really fast...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Kung tatanungin mo ako kung saan ako..."SAYA" o sa "TAMA"...ang sasabihin ko sayo ay sa SAYA...sa isang kadahilanan...kasi masaya ka(ako)...you're happy and you don't care what other people would say or think...you don't care if other people belittle you for something that makes you happy...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"I think, if you really know something is right, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. You have to be true to yourself. You may be alone in what you believe, but to do anything else is wrong."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">but there is a big BUT that needs to be considered...yes you are happy but aren't you going to make someone or the ones you love sad?...that's the question I have always been asking myself...if I choose my happiness wouldn't the ones I love suffer?...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I've tried to stay away but I really can't...napagsabihan na nga rin ako ng mga kaibigan ko na wag ko na ituloy ang kung ano man ito...maghanap nung may posibilidad...ung may chance ba...hindi ung aasa na lang ako at hanggang pag-asa na lang ang gagawin ko...nakasanayan ko na rin kasi ang ganito...hindi ko rin alam kung bakit palagi na lang ako bumabalik sa kung anu mang ginagawa kong ito...at ang mahirap pa...iisang sitwasyon lang ang lagi kong kinalalagyan...ni hindi man lang ako nakakawala sa paulit-ulit na mga pangyayaring ito...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Sabi nila sa akin paano mo malalaman kung hindi mo ita-try...pero paano ko ita-try kung malaki ang tayang nakalaan?...tulad sa poker...isang malaking risk ang pag taya mo ng all-in kung alam mo naman na yung hawak mong cards eh hindi ka naman talaga maipapanalo...kung i-try ko man...meron ba naman akong mapapala...oo sasaya ako pero sa bandang dulo ako pa rin naman ung walang mapapala...hehehe...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Oo gusto ko malaman ang magiging reaksyon mo kung malaman mo pero parang ayaw ko na lang din malaman kasi ayaw kong ma-disappoint...hindi naman sa umaasa ako pero nandun na yun eh...hindi na mawawala na aasa at aasa ka pa rin kahit papaano...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Gusto ko na maging close tayo...pero hindi ko rin yun magawa...nagawa...hindi ko alam kung paano mag-rereact sayo...hindi ko alam kung paano makikipag-usap sa iyo ng hindi ako nag-iisip ng mga bagay bagay...gusto ko mag start ng isang conversation pero lagi ako napipigilan ng kung sinu mang nasa utak ko...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Sandali, wala talaga, wala eh. Kung meron mang dahilan 'to, katulad ng ipinipilit mo, hindi ko alam. Hindi ko talaga alam. Oo, gusto kita, 'yun lang ang alam ko. Kung bakit, kailan nagsimula, papaano, hindi ko alam. Ni hindi ko nga alam kung bakit sa lahat ng tao, eh ikaw pa, sa'yo pa. Paano mo ba malalaman kung paano, kung kailan, kung bakit?"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Out of respect, I had wanted to share my fears and my doubts. I was quickly learning that you can only share what others want to hear. Anything else needs to be kept in a locked place inside you, even if it festers and churns and finally makes you crazy.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Oh sure, they loved the boy I pretended to be; the good boy, the 'cause no trouble' boy, the normal boy. In my warm false cocoon of this love, I had believed they'd love the hidden boy, the boy who cried at night for just a touch, just a smile, just a recognition.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">to that someone...sorry...sorry i haven't got the strength to face you and tell you the things that I really wanted to say...things that has been kept secret by those who are close to me...fearing that when everything has been revealed things will greatly change...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">*some paragraphs are taken from a story I have read...thanks to the author...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">it has been my dream to learn another language ever since I have started working...i don't really know why but this is what I want...and now that I have the time and the resources to add a little bit of new things under my resume I took the time to learn the language of something they call "Infinitely Yours!"...yes!!! that Korea!!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Korean is their official language in Korea and also Mandarin...but mostly Korean...worldwide, it is said there are millions who are speaking this language...many of the millions who speak korean are those who are affiliated directly to the country (merchants, businessmen, and those who have married a Korean) and the remaining are those, like me, that are just learning the language just because of pure interest...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">too formal of a post, right?...hehehe...it is just out of the blue when I decided to learn the language...I was watching something in the net and then I said to myself that I want to learn Korean...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">so far, I have learned quite a few things...like saying Hi...Good Night...Good Morning...Nice to Meet you...and the basic stuffs...but I want more...hehehe...thanks to our very reliable youtube and google i can learn more without even paying for the lessons...hehehe...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Oh! I just remembered I need to watch the lesson for today!...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Bye!!!! or should I say...<strong><em>Annyeonghi Kasayo!!!! Annyeong Hashimnika!!!</em></strong> ^_^</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: x-small;">Btw: I also wanted to be a member of a popular Korean boy group is also the reason why I wanted to learn the language...hehehe...</span>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-27283330763789313982012-04-27T19:03:00.001-07:002012-04-27T19:03:35.857-07:00Sa Tinagal ng Panahon...Haayyyy....sa tinagal tagal na panahon eh nasimulan ko na ulit itong pagsusulat dito., marami na ang nangyari simula nung naging iba ang mundong ginagalawan ko., maraming nagbago., may mga nawala., may mga dumaan., may mag dumating., merong mga nagpaalam., merong mga andyan pa rin., may paparating., at kung anu ano pang mga bagay bagay., buti na lang kinakaya ko pa itong mga ito.,<br />
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BUHAY --- tungkol sa buhay buhay ko., sa totoo lang ganun pa rin naman sya., pero ngayon mas matino na akong mag-isip ng tungkol sa mga bagay bagay., i mean, mas matured na ako kumpara sa dati kong sarili., naiisip ko na ngayon na hindi lang sa akin umiikot ang mundong ginagalawan ko., may mga taong mas matindi pa ang pinag-dadaanan kumpara sa mga napagdadaanan ko., hehe., siguro nga sa edad kong ito eh nararapat lang na mas maging mature na ako mag-isip., hehehe.,<br />
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PANGARAP --- hehehe., mataas pa rin ako mangarap hanggang sa ngayun., sino ba ang hindi., bukod sa libre eh masarap pa ang feeling kapag nangangarap ka dahil abot mo lahat., ahehehe., sa ngayon alam kong hindi ko pa kayang marating ung mga pangarap na yun pero balang araw eh makakahanap ako ng paraan para marating ko yun., alam kong hindi sa lahat ng oras eh magiging madali ang pag-abot ko sa mga yun pero alam ko rin naman sa sarili ko nakakayanin ko rin yun balang araw., tutal nagsisimula pa lang naman ako, so matagal tagal na panahon pa ang bubunuin ko., sa ngayon ok na muna ako dito kung nasan ako., hindi ko naman sinasabing mag-se-settle na lang ako sa kung anu ang nandyan, ang gusto ko lang is ung tipong alam kong handa na akong sumabak sa kung anu man ang haharapin ko bago ako magsimula.,<br />
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KAIBIGAN --- sabi ko nga dati., parang hindi ko kakayanin na mabuhay na walang kaibigan., hindi ako sure kung isang araw malaman ko na lang na wala na pala akong mga kaibigan., lalo na kung malaman nila ang mundong ginagalawan ko., pero ngayon...alam na alam ko na marami akong kaibigan., maraming marami., hindi ko man sila nakakasama ng madalas alam kong nandyan lang sila., makakausap., makakaramay., (ayan nagiging drama na...)., pero sa totoo lang hindi ko inakalang mapapapasok ko sila sa isang mundong gawa ko., sa mundong ako lang dati ang nakapaloob., tinanggap nila ang mundo ko tulad ng pagtanggap ko sa mundo nila., kung baga sa Venn Diagram merong mga parts na talagang mag-o-over lap., hehehe., sa tinagal ng panahon marami na ang nagpaalam., merong mga nakaka-alala pa rin at meron din naman mga hindi na., hehehe., kilala nyo na kung sinu kayo., merong mga dumating na bago na kahit alam kong mas nakaka-angat sila sa akin eh alam kong hindi nila tinitignan kung nasaang posisyon ako., <br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">We were all stricken by the news. We thought that Tito has been recovering well from his illness. We all thought that he can surely overcome this obstacle in front of his like he always did. But all our guesses were wrong. We have not anticipated this coming. They said that he was doing well and that in no time he will recover. But then it happened.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Yes, I've been there (when I lost my grandmother) but still everything is really hard to handle. It is never really easy losing someone in your life especially someone who has been there for you always. It is never easy how you can just let go of everything that both you and that person shared.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">To my Ate Em who lost the first man that she ever loved, her father, let me just say this. I'll be here if you need someone to talk to. I'll be here if you need someone to share your tears. I'll always be here, as your friend and as your cousin.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">To my Tito, you can now rest peacefully with our Lord. Please watch over Tita, Ate Em, Faye, Choy, Micah, Junie and most especially Haley. We will miss you...</span>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-48195289490718777552011-10-18T04:18:00.000-07:002011-10-18T04:18:11.379-07:00...playing with numbers...<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">77111114105...83111114114121, 115111114114121 116971089710397. 104105110100105 107111 1109710997110 116971089710397 103105110117115116111 105116111110103 1109711497114971091009710997110 107111 1129711497 11597121111 10797115105 9710897109 107111110103 10997108105110103 10997108105 105116111. 7797103107971059810510397110 11697121111. 67108111115101 11697121111 1079712197 9712197119 1071113297110103 110971101031219712197114105110103 105116111 10797115105 9710897109 107111 11097 1099710897107105 97110103 1121111151059810510810510097100 11097 1089712111797110 109111 97107111. 7697108111 11097 107117110103 109971089710997110 109111110103 10510797119 97110103 103117115116111 107111. 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10910397 103117115116111 107111110103 1159798105104105110. 72105110100105 107111 10997105104971049711497112 97110103 10911710710497 107111 11597121111 1079711297103 110971089710997110 109111 1089710497116 110103 105116111.</span>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-66164304393028829692011-10-17T02:14:00.000-07:002011-10-18T00:34:11.934-07:00On dreams...<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><b>Dreams...in wikipedia dreams are successions of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations that occur involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep<br />
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Dreams mainly occur in the rapid-eye movement (REM) stage of sleep—when brain activity is high.<br />
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Dreams are a connection to the human subconscious. They can range from normal and ordinary to overly surreal and bizarre. Dreams can often at times make a creative thought occur to the person or give a sense of inspiration.<br />
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Dreamers are usually not self-aware in their dreams; thus the dreams may seem very real to them while asleep.</b></i><br />
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Panaginip sa tagalog...lahat tayo nananaginip...tulog o gising...madalas ako sa ganitong estado...parating nananaginip...<br />
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Kilala nyo na siguro kung sino ang napapanaginipan ko kaya hindi ko na kailangan pang banggitin pa kung sinu sya...basta ang alam ko sya ang kadalasang laman ng mga panaginip ko...makailang beses ko na rin syang napanaginipan kahit na hindi naman sya ang huling nasa isipan ko bago ako matulog...<br />
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...napanaginipan nanaman kita...di ko na matandaan...basta ang alam ko nagtatawanan tayo...(oo patay na patay ako sa tawa mo., ahehehe., di ko rin alam kung bakit eh., basta alam ko gustong gusto ko ung tawa mo.,)<br />
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...ilang araw nanaman kitang napanaginipan...(medyo nakakalimutan ko kasi ung mga panaginip ko eh!)...natatandaan ko dun sa panaginip para tayong nasa classroom tapos dumating ka...tapos ang alam ko may tinanong ako sa nun eh...tapos bigla kayong umalis ni <i><b>[kulit]</b></i> tapos baba ng hagdan...sumunod lang ung tingin ko sayo...tapos kinausap ko ung classmate ko nung college (na nasa panaginip din)...ang sabi ko sa kanya di ko na kaya...<br />
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...napanaginipan nanaman kita nung isang araw...pumayag ka daw na isama ako sa pupuntahan mo...(basta ayun...too much detail na kasi kapag sinabi ko pa kung saan)...<br />
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...ang alam ko dalawang bese kitang napanaginipan kanina di ko lang natandaan ung una...(adik lang?)...kaya ung panagalawa ni-save ko sa CP ko...ganito daw yun...nasa <i><b>[lugar]</b></i> daw tayong dalawa tapos parang pauwi na tayo (sa kung saan man galing)...tapos may bago raw akong gamit sabi mo sa akin patingin edi binigay ko sayo...tapos sumakay na daw ako ng jeep tapos ikaw hindi sumakay...nakita ko na hindi ka sumakay tapos naalala ko rin na ung gamit ko nasa iyo pa...bumaba ako ng jeep tapos binalikan kita tapos parang tinatanong ko sayo kung nasan na ung gamit ko tapos niloloko mo ako na wala sayo...yun pala nilagay mo sa bag mo...(nagkasya ung malaking gamit ko dun sa bag mo., ahehehe)...</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
...napanaginipan nanaman kita...bakit ba kasi ayaw mong mawala, pati sa panaginip ko ayaw mong mawala...Hindi ko alam kung hanggang sa panaginip ikaw pa rin ang iniisip ko pero hindi na kasi tama...ilang beses na kasi kitang napapanaginipan...yung ilang beses na yun eh hindi naman pare-pareho...meron time na yung panaginip ko ay ikaw lang at mga taong di ko kilala...pero ung kanina naman parang nasa isang school tapos marami akong kakilala...(baka ipapakilala na kita sa kanila? jokes)...ewan ko ba...bakit ikaw napapanaginipan ko?...<br />
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...napanaginipan ulit kita...parang galing tayo sa mall/ospital tapos kasama natin si <i><b>[master]</b></i>, basta ikaw nagda-drive...pagdating natin dun sa pupuntahan bumaba kayo...tapos meron akong sinabi dun sa isang kasama natin...baka magalit ka...<br />
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...nung isang linggo lang napanaginipan kita ulit...ang nangyari naman eh si <i><b>[Stuagin on]</b></i> eh inaagaw sa akin si <i><b>[insert name here]</b></i>(ikaw to!) at si <i><b>[miss baet]</b></i>...ahehehe...wala lang...<br />
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tapos nung saturday lang napanaginipan ulit kita...nasa ospital daw si <i><b>[kulit]</b></i> tapos parang naiinis ka sa akin di ko alam kung bakit...ayun....parang may something between the two of you eh...ahehehe...<br />
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Speaking of dreams...ilang beses na akong nananaginip ng puro ahas...dun nga nagsimula ung pagiging takot ko sa ahas kahit sa TV ko lang nakikita...basta ayaw ko...so nag search ako tungkol dun at ito ang nakita ko...</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
<i>To see a snake or be bitten by one in your dream, signifies hidden fears and worries that are threatening you. Your dream may be alerting you to something in your waking life that you are not aware of or that has not yet surfaced. Alternatively, the snake may be seen as phallic and thus symbolize temptation, dangerous and forbidden sexuality. In particular, to see a snake on your bed, suggests that you are feeling sexually overpowered or sexually threatened. You may be inexperienced, nervous or just unable to keep up. If you are afraid of the snake, then it signifies your fears of sex, intimacy or commitment. The snake may also refer to a person around you who is callous, ruthless, and can't be trusted. As a positive symbol, snakes represent healing, transformation, knowledge and wisdom. It is indicative of self-renewal and positive change. <br />
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To see the skin of a snake in your dream, represents protection from illnesses. <br />
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To see a snake with a head on each end in your dream, suggests that you are being pulled in two different directions. You are feeling overburdened and do not know whether you are coming or going. Your actions are counterproductive. Perhaps the dream represents some complicated love triangle. Alternatively, the dream signifies your desires for children. If you see a two-headed snake in your dream, then it refers to cooperation and teamwork in some relationship.</i><br />
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<i>To dream that you are eating a live snake, indicates that you are looking for intimacy or sexual fulfillment. Your life is lacking sensuality and passion. If you vomit or throw up the snake, then it may mean that you are overcompensating for something that is lacking in your life. You may be rushing into something.</i><br />
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isa pang bagay na related sa dreams ay ang daydreaming...na according to wikipedia again...(para kunyari matalino)...<br />
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A daydream is a visionary fantasy, especially one of happy, pleasant thoughts, hopes or ambitions, imagined as coming to pass, and experienced while awake.</b></i><br />
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magaling ako dito...as in...kahit dilat na dilat ako eh todo todong pagdadaydream na ang ginagawa ko...pati nga lang ung paglalakad ko minsan pauwi sa bahay may kasamang daydream...kahit minsan din kasama ko mga kaibigan ko bigla bigla na lang ako magdadaydream...kung subject lang yan noong college malamang naging Summa Cum Laude ako...o kaya kung profession yan baka isa na ako sa mga pinakamagaling dyan...ahehehe...<br />
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o sya...kailangan ko pa ulit managinip...see you there...ahehehe...</div>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-88489724142017615812011-10-13T02:56:00.000-07:002011-10-13T03:06:08.808-07:00Pero bakit nga ba?...<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Nung isang araw napagtripan ko nanaman manlibre sa kadahilanang hindi ko mawari., Hindi ko mawari kasi di ko talaga alam kung bakit ko ba naisipan na mag-ayang kumain sa labas noong isang araw...<br />
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Alam ko sa sarili ko na talagang naisipan ko lang din bigla yung pangyayari, pero napaisip lang ako sa mga bagay bagay nung may isang kasama akong magtanong kung bakit nga ba ako nanlibre...at isang nakakag@gong ngiti ung pinakita nya sa akin...<br />
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Bakit nga ba?....anu nga ba ang dahilan ng pabigla bigla kong pag-aaya?...meron nga bang dahilan ang "wala lang" at "trip ko lang"?...mga dahilang parati kong binibitawan sa harap ng maraming taong nagtatanong ng "Bakit"...<br />
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"Wala lang"...bakit yan nga ba ang parati kong naisasagot sa mga kausap ko....marahil ay ayaw ko lang palawakin pa ang topic ng pag-uusap dahil sa hindi ako kumportable sa pinag-uusapan...marahil hindi ko lang talaga alam kung anu ang isasagot ko...marahil hindi ko inasahan na tatanungin ako ng ganung tanong at walang pumasok sa isip ko para masagot ito...o marahil merong mas malalim na kadahilanan kung bakit kadalasan ay iyon na lang ang naisasagot ko...<br />
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Bakit ko nga ba ginagawa iyon?...ungbigla biglang pag-aaya...Ano ang mga posibleng dahilan ng paggawa ko nun?...<br />
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</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><b>NAGMAMAYABANG</b>?...hindi naman...never akong naging mayabang sa kahit na anong bagay...hindi ko kailan man ipinagyabang ang kung anu man ang meron ako sa lahat ng tao...(di ko sure kung ako lang) pero para sa akin never akong naging mayabang...sa katunayan nga eh sobrang mahiyain pa nga ako...as in sobrang mahiyain....inaamin ko na meron akong inferiority complex...never kong nakita ang sarili ko na naging superior sa kahit na sinong nilalang...ito rin siguro ang dahilan kung bakit ako mahiyain...<br />
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</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><b>NAGMAMAYAMAN</b>?...ito ang isang napakalaking kasinungalingan...hindi ako kailan man naging mayaman...hindi ko rin naman masasabi na may kaya kami dahil hindi ganoon kaginhawa ang buhay namin...kung minsan ay kinakapos pa rin ang naibibigay ko sa bahay...hehehe...so definitely hindi ako nagmamayaman...<br />
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<b>NAPROMOTE</b>?...nope...isang malaking HINDI!!!!!...wish ko lang na magkatotoo ito...kaya lang mas malabo pa sa tubig ng ilog pasig yan...buti kong talagang ung mga task ko eh pag-kabog na sa mga seniors...ahehehe...so ito ay isang malaking HINDI!...<br />
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<b>NA-INCREASE-AN</b>?...isa pang napakalaking HINDI...asa naman ako na tumaas ang sahod ko no...sintagal ng isang century egg pa yata mangyayari ang milagrong iyan...ahehehe...pero inaasahan ko ito...pero sa ngayun ay hindi...hindi pa tumataas ang sahod ko...how I wish...ahehehe....<br />
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<b>GALANTE</b>?...hindi din(yata)...hindi ko niconsider na isang galanteng tao ako...ahehehe...meron pa rin dyan magsasabi na kuripot ako...ahehehe...<br />
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<b>GALIT SA PERA</b>?...medyo lang pero hindi pa naman siguro ako baliw para magalit ng ganun sa pera...ahehehe...<br />
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<b>DEPRESSED</b>?...hindi din...actually, lately masaya na ako...medyo nagkakasapak na lang ako kapag may mga bagay bagay na naaalala...<br />
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<b>EH BAKIT NGA BA?...<br />
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BAKIT NGA BA?...</b><br />
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Hindi ko pa rin kayang sagutin yan...ahehehe...pero isa lang ang masasabi ko...iisa lang ang dahilan ng lahat...at isang tao pa lang ang nakakaalam ng kasagutan sa tanong na iyan...at hindi nya naitanong sa akin ang "Bakit nga ba?"...nagpost lang sya ng kung anu man at noong mabasa ko yun ay tagus-tagusan akong tinamaan...ahehehe...<br />
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anu nga ba?... <i><b>BAKIT NGA BA?..."wala lang"</b></i></div>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-29335059326763066742011-10-04T21:04:00.000-07:002011-10-04T22:27:41.698-07:00Just killing time...<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I was always talking to myself and pretending that everything is now OK. But, I have been smiling (at times laughing) a lot lately and that's a big improvement in me since i have been this emo guy for the past couple of months.<br />
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I have been reading back my journal here at the office and i realized that I have been like that for almost four months now (good thing i decided to stop that nonsense act of mine). It was so stupid of me to let this be like this for sooooo long. As my previous posts have revealed to one of my friend, so he said, the possible identity of <i><b>[insert name here]</b></i> (i can't name drop here) i have come to a conclusion that i should not be hiding that anymore since the whole world could read my blog. And that anybody can do what my friend did....<b>INVESTIGATE</b>...well come to think of it, i have been throwing tons and tons of clue about the identity of <i><b>[insert name here]</b></i>.<br />
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"Ask me and I'll answer it!" that's my new motto. Ask me anything and i'll admit to it if it is true. No denying of anything.<br />
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Just like what I did with one of my office friend when she asked me who <i><b>[insert name here] </b></i>was. I gave the name away, but that took a lot of my guts to do. I mean it was just a name but I am the one at stake here. Its the whole me we are talking about here and I ain't just be giving you details that could make or break me (well break me for the most part).<br />
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After her so much shock about <i><b>[insert name here]</b></i> it became just like another normal conversation between us. At least now i can directly talk to her about <i><b>[insert name here] </b></i>without having to mask <i><b>[insert name here]</b></i>'s identity.<br />
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Another thing...I let my friend from other project read my journal and he said that some of the entries are "kilig moments". I mean the journal is about me and <i><b>[insert name here]</b></i> and our encounters . To me it was just foolish entries I can't imagine until now that there are some "kilig moments" there.<br />
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hehehehehe...that just about it., I can't think of anything to write anymore...<br />
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oh! another thing...my friends here are wondering if I am "nagtatampo" but <b>I am not</b>..."Wala naman akong dapat ika-tampo"...I just have to balance time between everyone...hehehe...hope this answers the <b>BIG QUESTION</b>...</div>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-31737655885562181202011-09-16T08:05:00.000-07:002011-09-16T08:05:17.365-07:00...the deleted one...<span style="font-family: "Georgia","serif";">Untitled<o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Georgia","serif";">Hindi ko naman sinasadya., hindi ko lang talaga namalayan na unti-unti na pala akong nagkakaroon ng mas malalim na pagtingin sa iyo., unti unti na akong nakakain ng kung anu man itong nararamdaman ko ngayon.,</span><o:p></o:p><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Georgia","serif";">Ilang araw na rin akong ganito., di ko alam kung tama ba ung mga nararamdaman ko para sayo., alam kong mali ang umasa ako sa isang panaginip lang, pero pare-pareho lang naman tayong tao., na nangangarap at may mga pinapangarap., imposible man ang mga ito libre naman at walang pumipigil sa akin.,</span><o:p></o:p><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Georgia","serif";">May mga maliliit na bagay ang ginagawa mo na nakapagpapatalon sa puso ko., hindi ko man iyon maipakita, ramdam na ramdam ko naman ang bawat sandali na magkasama tayo ay labis na kasiyahan ang nararamdaman ko., hindi ako umaasa na may mas malalim pang mamagitan sa atin sapagkat matagal ko ng tinanggap na kung anu man ang meron sa atin ngayon ay hanggang doon na lang ito., wala ng lalabis pa sa pinapakita mo sa aking kabaitan., kung anu man itong nararamdaman ko ay sasarilihin ko na lang., walang ibang makakaalam ng buo kong nararamdaman sa araw araw bukod sa natatago kong kwaderno kung saan nakalahad ang lahat ng mga nais kong sabihin sayo., Mga bagay na kung mababasa mo man ay alam kong may magbabago., mga bagay na tanging ako at ang kwadernong ito lang ang nakakaalam.,</span><o:p></o:p><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Georgia","serif";">Imposible ang pangarap ko at ikaw yun., imposible sa mga paraang hindi kayang ipaliwanag ng kung sino man ang makakaalam.,</span><o:p></o:p><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Georgia","serif";">Nahihirapan ako sa ganitong nangyayari., natatakot akong maging mas malapit tayo., takot ako sa mga maaring mangyari., ayokong may magbago., pero alam kong kapag hindi ko pa nilayo ung sarili ko sayo baka masobrahan na ako sa pagkahulog at hindi ko na maiangat pa ang sarili ko., gusto kong lumayo pero hindi ko kaya., mahirap kasi malapit tayo sa isa't isa., mahirap kasi malaki ang posibilidad na ikaw ang lumayo., bakit ba kasi ako naging ganito?., bakit sa katulad mo pa ako nahulog., hindi ko alam kung na ang gagawin ko., kung lalayo ako o hahayaan ko na lang muna to., niloloko ko na ung sarili ko., niloloko ko ung sarili ko na iba ung gusto ko.,</span><o:p></o:p><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Georgia","serif";">Anu ba kasalanan ko at ganito ung nararamdaman ko?., anu ba nagawa ko para pahirapan ako ng ganito?., mali ba ako?., hindi ko naman to ginusto., hindi ako ang pumili nito., ni wala namang pagpipilian na ibinigay sa akin., wala., mahirap., sobra.,</span><o:p></o:p><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Georgia","serif";">sa ngayon ito nanaman ako at nakatitig sa aking kwaderno at unti unting naglalabas ng mga saloobing hinding hindi ko naman masasabi at mailalabas ng harapan.,</span><o:p></o:p>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-30744222661450685672011-09-15T06:39:00.001-07:002011-09-15T06:39:45.271-07:00Dear You...(Sana Bukas)<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Nais na kitang kalimutan., nais ko nang lumaya sa pagkakakulong sa nararamdaman kong ito., hindi ko man nasabi sa iyo pero kailangan ko nang tapusin ang kung anu man ang para sa akin ay isang malaking pangarap.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">isang malaking pangarap na paulit ulit ko na lang ginagawa., isang malaking kamalian na ang tanging paraan lang para maitama ay ang paglayo., hindi ko man kayanin sa pisikal na aspeto kailangan ko naman itong kimkimin sa aking isipan at kalooban.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">sinu nga ba naman ako para sa iyo?., hindi ako isang malaking kawalan sa buhay mo kung magpakalayo layo ako., pero hindi ko kaya., ikaw ang taong sabay na nagagawa ang ako'y paligayahin at saktan., saktan sa paraang ako lamang ang nakakaalam.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">oo hindi mo nga alam na nakakasakit ka., pero hindi mo talaga ito kasalanan., hindi ikaw ang may kasalanan kung hindi ako dahil hinyaan ko ang aking sarili na damhin ang lahat., ako ang mali sa aspetong ito dahil umasa ako., umasa sa isang malaking kahibangan., </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">nabuhay ako sa aking sariling mundo., isang mundong puno ng pangarap na tanging sa ilusyong mundo ko lang kayang makamtan., hindi man halata sa aking kilos pero may mga bagay na talagang hindi ko maiwasang masaktan., hindi ako galit., dahil wala akong karapatang magalit., wala ako sa lugar para magalit sa isang taong walang kaalam alam sa mga bagay bagay., </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">sa sarili ko lang ako dapat magalit dahil nandirito nanaman ako., nandirito nanaman ako sa isang sitwasyon kung saan ako ang talo., parating ako ang talo sa dulo't dulo.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">pero sana...sana...sana bukas o sa isang araw matuto na ako., matuto sa paulit-ulit kong pagkakamaling ito... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia;">-J</span>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-76841261472574598842011-09-05T00:32:00.000-07:002011-09-05T00:32:33.462-07:00my hands are up...let me just give up...<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">My hands are up! I'm giving it up!., I don't want this no more.,I guess its time that I move forward and forget everything., The feeling that I have been trying to deal with for quite a long time now.,<br />
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This time i'll let it go before this makes an even bigger mark in my life., i have always been like this., feeling something for someone but never had the guts to tell them how I feel., and then finally realizing that what I want is something that that person can't give back.,<br />
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I know not even trying to tell that person what I feel is part of the long list of mistakes I keep on doing but what can I do when I am afraid that that same fact keeps me and that person together., hiding these feelings for this person keeps us what we are and what we will always be.,<br />
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Now I am choosing what I will win and what I will lose., I am taking chances eventhough i'll feel pain., I don't want to stand by the side and watch my life pass me by., <br />
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"So what if it hurts me, so what if I break down, so what if the world just throws me off the edge my runs out of ground....I just want to be happy" :P</div>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-50811833397532827732011-08-06T21:22:00.000-07:002011-08-06T21:22:50.802-07:00...spacing out...I made up my mind,<br />
I don't care what other people would say<br />
As long as you feel the same way.<br />
I would go to the end of the world with you,<br />
I know it's not easy,<br />
I try to convince myself,<br />
I just want want to be close,<br />
just close enough to know you and me better.<br />
Something more than that is what we'll have to see.<br />
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Love needs courage, to face the rumors.<br />
All I need is a firmlook from you,<br />
then my love would have meaning.<br />
We need courage to believe in us.<br />
I can feel you through the crowd,<br />
Please put your heart in my hands.<br />
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I have never taken any risks in my life,<br />
Risks that I would not know the outcome.<br />
But with you i'm ready to take it all,<br />
even if it meant breaking me into pieces.<br />
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When i'm in love I can't help to be a moth,<br />
attracted to the fire that can help but burn.<br />
I can live for love and I can die for love.Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-66173972357087961662011-07-30T05:09:00.000-07:002011-07-30T05:09:55.600-07:00...4 Persons...<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Life is the process of finding love; every person will need to find four people in their life.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">First person is you.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Second person is the one you love most.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Third is the person who love you most.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">And the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your love.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Before you can ever find love, you first have to realize what LOVE to you means and essentially directs that knowledge of love to Yourself. After all, you can never really truly give love to anyone unless you have love for your own self. That is why the First Person is you. </div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">After you've established what love means to you, you now brave the fight of shraing yourself and your love to someone else. To this person, you give more that you were capable of and you love without really knowing why, how or what for. You just do. This is the person (you) love the most. Your second person.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Because you know how it is to truly love, you then accept the fate of being loved beyond your own understanding. Here comes the love that brings you back that memory of that Second Person. You recognize the feeling, only it doesn;t spring out of you, but rather, directed to you. After having given your all to someone, you now find the person who will love you the most. Enter, your Third person.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">After you've been through the peaks and valleys of love, onceyou've experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you realize exactly what you need. And when you finally piece it (and yourself) all together, you find that one person who fits the bill; the person who suits you -perfectly enough to spend the rest of your life with. This is your Fourth Person.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person. The one you love the most doesn't love you the same way; the one who loves you most, is never the one you love the best, and the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most. He is just the person who happens to be at the right place, at the right time in you life.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">So now tell me this:</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
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</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Which person are you in other people's life?</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Which person have you found so far?</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">In this world so big, which person have you found?</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">And who has found you?</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
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</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">- This one was given to me by an officemate to read. It is given to him by a friend of his. Hope this inspires you the way I was.</div>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-88321332868877520582011-07-24T20:04:00.000-07:002011-07-24T20:04:39.326-07:00...Dear You..<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Dear You, <br />
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Ito ako ngayon at litong lito sa mga nararamdaman ko sa bawat pagdaan ng araw., hindi rin naman kita masisi sa kung anu man ito dahil may kasalanan din naman ako.,<br />
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Kasalanan kong hinayaan ko ang sarili ko na madama ito, ng hindi ko man lang itinanong muna kung kaya ko ba?., hindi ko man lang naisip na paulit ulit na lang ako sa bagay na ito., ni hindi ko man lang naconsider na ako nanaman ang aasa at masasaktan pagdating ng araw.,<br />
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sabihin ko man na hindi ko inaasam na humigit pa ang kung ano man ang meron sa atin eh hindi ko rin naman maloloko ang sarili ko tungkol sa kung anu man ang nararamdaman ko para sayo., <br />
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kung minsan gusto ko na lang sabihin sayo na sana dumating ang isang araw na ako na rin ang nilalaman ng isip at puso mo., pero naiisip ko na mas malaki pa rin ang posibilidad na ang pangarap ko ay isang malaking pangarap na lang, wala na itong patutunguhan kung hindi ang dahan dahan kong tanggapin na ang bawat taong mamahalin ko ay hindi maaring ibalik ang kung anu man ang ibinibigay ko., <br />
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hindi ko sinasabi sa iyo na suklian mo ang kung anu man ang nararamdaman ko para sayo dahil una sa lahat hindi mo naman ito obligasyon at higit sa lahat hindi naman ikaw ang nagsabi sa akin na damhin ko ang nararamdaman ko., <br />
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oo magulo ako sa mga bagay bagay pagdating sa puso kasi hindi ko pa alam kung papaano magkaroon ng isang taong mahal ako at ipinapadama nya ito sa akin ng walang pag-aalinlangan., magulo ako sa kadahilanang hindi ko pa alam kung paano ang ibigin., magulo ako sa kadahilanang<br />
hindi ko maipaliwanag kung bakit ako nahuhulog ng ganito sa isang tao na kahit alam kong aasa lang ako at masasaktan.,<br />
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patuloy pa rin ako sa ganitong sitwasyon., ilang beses man akong nasaktan ay ito pa rin ako bumabalik nanaman sa simula., balik sa kung saan man nagsisimula ang unti unting paglaki ng butas nitong aking puso.,<br />
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sabihin ko man sa aking sarili na isang araw may darating din na para sa akin ay hindi ko na maitatago ang kakulangan na aking ninanais nang punan., wala ngang nagsabi na magiging madali ang lahat., pero wala rin namang nagsabi na ganito kahirap ang ganito.,<br />
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-Jhay </div>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-41808257027852751672011-07-22T22:52:00.000-07:002011-07-22T22:53:45.373-07:00...want to be known for doing this?...<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Just because you think that something is cool doesn't mean that it is cool for everyone.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I have nothing against the trends today because I don't really mind what other people wants to do with their lives but in this case where my name can be related to something that other people are doing is just not right.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I am referring to the PLM Planking., Yes!., Students from my Alma Mater are doing it., I really don't care whether they do it or not., what bothers me is that they are doing it wearing our uniforms and using the University's name., </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Is that what they want to be known for?., just like what my classmate said in his </span><a href="http://www.facebook.com/notes/jose-perez/on-plm-planking/10150260262274526"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">post</span></a><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"> at facebook., here is what he said.,</span><br />
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<blockquote><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Imagine this in a job interview. The interviewer did some background search and then said, "Oh, you're from PLM. I saw your page for Planking. You must be good at it. Sample! Sample!" You know it's an exaggeration. It's funny but it's not how it should be.</span></blockquote><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I wouldn't want that to happen to me, that is not the way I want to be known for., especially when there is a really really tough industry out there., yes it is tough out here at the real world.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Not to boast but I do know that students at PLM are the creme of the crop., we are called ISKOLARS., when people ask where I graduated and I would reply "from PLM" their initial reaction is "whoa, so you are really bright"., I don't want the day to come when I say I came from PLM and all they could say is that "is that where the students are so good at Planking?".,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I have read about planking and I found out that this is a game where you pose lying face down in unusual places., A game?., what would you get if you do that?., what's the prize?., </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Yeah! yeah! call me a "kill joy" person but what would you get by doing that., except dirty shirts and threatening your life?., I cannot see what people are trying to achieve by doing that.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Again, I have nothing against people doing Planking what I am bothered about is that these students are using the university's name and uniform, that is just plain "NOT RIGHT".,</span>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-39946745563388829552011-07-17T01:39:00.000-07:002011-07-17T01:39:18.393-07:0010 for 22<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Looks like it's just a little time until one of the best days in my life is gonna happen., No it's not the day that i'll win the lottery and also not the day that I will be a star coz already I am., (just kidding)., ;)</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">well, kidding aside I will be celebrating my 22nd (ouch! please stop the aging process) birthday., yeah! yeah! I am starting to get old but hey! I can always pretend to be young and also I am young at heart and mind ("isip-bata")., </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">just to keep this short and simple this is 10 things that I would like to have for my birthday., well not all the things listed here are material things and not all the material things listed here can be bought with one swoop.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">10. New Hoodie Jacket., Well my trusty old jacket (if I may call it a jacket) is now doing me service for more than 1 year so I guess it's just the right time to have a new one., so that I can have alternate jackets at the office., I've been tired washing my jacket on Sundays and to the best of my luck when Mondays come it is not all dried up.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">9. A Rubber shoes (you know what I want!)., again I only have one rubber shoes and it came from Cartimar., hehe., I am not complaining about that but I guess it is time for me to have at least one original rubber shoes., I've not have any original rubber shoes since 1st year college and now that I am working I still don't get to buy an original one! (huhuhuhuhuhu!)., :'( but for sure i'll have one...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">8. A Sport shirt., lately i've been hooked up with playing badminton and I really don't have a proper outfit., well I was envy of some of my playmate's shirts so I just want to have one., hehe., did I mention that I ripped my shorts apart the last time I played Badminton., that was just pure embarrassing.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">7. A nokia C7., I am not saying that I don't like my phone but I guess it's just the time that I give my good old phone a little break., or maybe pass it on to my parents., why C7?., I really don't know why but when I first saw that phone I just told myself that I should have one of that one of these days., but that "days" hasn't come yet!., hehehe.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">6. A Starbucks Tumbler., just really really want to own one., hehehe., ;)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">5. Time., I just want to have more time for myself to enjoy the things that I want to do., hehehehe., a little less time for stress and a bit more time for fun.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">4. To Travel (in and outside the country)., yes!., I want to travel., even though not abroad., I just want to travel the Philippines., see different places with my friends., and take snapshots of the memories there., hehe.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">3. Patience., i've been starting to lose my patience in waiting these couple of months, weeks, days, hours, minutes and seconds., so please please grant me some patience</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">2. Someone to call my own - enough said!., and can you please add a dash of confidence to tell the one that I like that I like them., hehehehe., ;)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">1. Stronger Faith., needs to have a deeper relationship with HIM!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I will not demand for everything on this list to be mine this coming birthday of mine but my plan is to get them a step at a time and after a year before my birthday I hope I have erased most of the things here and have a spot for the new ones.</span>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-65196031997470058542011-07-03T19:28:00.003-07:002011-07-03T19:54:27.855-07:00wala lang...<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><m:smallfrac m:val="off"> <m:dispdef> <m:lmargin m:val="0"> <m:rmargin m:val="0"> <m:defjc m:val="centerGroup"> <m:wrapindent m:val="1440"> <m:intlim m:val="subSup"> <m:narylim m:val="undOvr"> </m:narylim></m:intlim> </m:wrapindent> </m:defjc></m:rmargin></m:lmargin></m:dispdef></m:smallfrac></div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpFirst" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Ito ako ngayon nakaupo sa isang sulok ng kwarto at nakatingin sa kanya habang mahimbing siyang natutulog sa aking tabi. Pinagmamasdan ang kanyang maamong mukha. Isang maamong mukha na nakapagpabago ng lahat sa isang iglap lang.</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Naaalala ko pa ang mga nangyari...</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Matagal tagal na panahon na rin kaming hindi nagkikitang magkakabarkada. Ilang taon na kaming di nagkakasama-sama para magkwentuhan at mag-asaran.</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Sinama kita papunta sa bahay ng isa kong kaibigan kung saan kami magkikita kitang magbabarkada. Niyaya kita na sumama at laking gulat ko ng madali ko kitang napapayag na ako'y samahan.</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Nasa byahe tayong dalawa papunta sa aking kaibigan ng matanong ka kung bakit ikaw ang aking niyaya. Isang simpleng sagot lang ang narinig mo sa akin. "Wala lang...". Isang ngiti lang ang namutawi sa iyong mukha.</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Pagdating na pagdating natin sa bahay ng aking kaibigan ay pumasok na kami agad at naupo sa kanilang sofa. Hinugot nya ang kanyang cellphone at nagtext. Alam ko kung sinu ang kanyang kausap. Ang kanyang kasintahan.</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Dumating na rin ang aking mga kaibigan at nagsimula na kaming magkulitan. Ipinakilala kita sa kanilang lahat at mabilis namang naging palagay ang loob nila sa iyo. Mabuti na rin iyon para hindi ka naman ma OP. Kwentuhan, asaran, kulitan, at kung anu anu pang kabulastugan nanaman ang ginawa naming magkakaibigan.</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Sinimulan na rin ang inuman. Dahan dahang itinatagay ang isang maliit na baso na may lamang alak. Unti unti ng kinain ng espiritu ng alak ang ating mga kamuwangan. Mas naging maingay at makukulit tayong lahat. Nawala ang mga hiya. Naging maingay at magulo ang lahat.</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Di naman ako malakas uminom kaya't ilang ikot ng mga tagay ay may tama na ako. Itinigil ko ang pag inom dahil alam kong di ko kakayanin kapag tumuloy pa ako. Para mawala ng kaunti ang aking tama nagprisinta akong lumabas para bumili ng mapupulutan. Mejo natagalan kami ng isa ko pang kaibigan dahil medyo nalibang kami sa pagkwekwentuhan</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Mas naging maingay na kayo ng aking mga kaibigan ng kami'y makabalik hindi ko alam kung bakit pero natuwa rin ako sa aking mga nakikita. Ramdam ko na malapit na kayo sa isa't isa. Parang isa ka na rin sa amin.</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Hindi ko na pinoproblema kung makakasabay ka sa akin dahil alam kong isa ka na rin sa amin.</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Nagtungo ako sa kusina para ayusin ang aming mga binili. Naunang lumabas sa akin ang kaibigan ko at ako na lang ang mag-isang naiwan. Dahil sa ayaw ko ng uminom at alam kong may mga tama na kayo nagpasya akong maghilamos upang mahimasmasan ng kahit kaunti. </div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Masaya ako dahil nakasama kita dito sa okasyong ito. Masaya ako at nakilala mo ang mga kaibigan ko. Masaya ako, tapos.</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Paglabas ko ng kusina ikaw ang una kong napansin. Tumayo ka sa kinauupuan mo at lumapit sa akin. Bumulong ka sa akin at sinabing "I'm Sorry...". Natigilan ako sa iyong ginawa. Nanlamig ang buo kong katawan. Di ako makagalaw. Anu ang ibig sabihin ng iyong ginawa? Ano ang kahulugan non sa akin? Sa atin?</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Wala akong nagawa. Ni hindi ko man lang napigilan ka sa ginawa mo. Ni hindi ko man lang alam kung anu ang magiging reaksyon ko. Natapos ang ilang sigundo ay umalis ka na sa harapan ko. Natapos ang ilang segundo na hindi ko man lang maintindihan kung anu ang nangyari.</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Bumalik ako sa kinauupuan ko na magulo pa rin ang isip. Biglang nagsalita ang isa ko pang kaibigan. "Bakit ka namumula?. Dahil ba hinalikan ka nya? Hehehehehe...". Biglang turo sa iyo. Biglang sabat naman ng isa pa na "O tuloy na natin ung game... o sinu na next?"</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Madaling araw na ng matapos ang kasiyahan kaya't nagpasya na lang ang lahat na doon na lang matulog. Nasa terrace akong mag-isa at naka-upo. Iniisip ang mga nagyari kanina.</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Umupo ka sa aking tabi at binangga mo ang aking siko. "Anung meron? Seryoso ka ata?". Ang sabi ko nama'y "Wala lang". </div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">"Ah ganun ba? Sorry kanina ha?". </div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">"Wala lang yun sa akin. Pero bakit ka pumayag? At saka..."</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Di ka na nakasagot sa tanong kong iyon. Nasandal na ang ulo mo sa aking balikat at ikaw mahimbing nang nakatulog. Di mo na maririnig ang mga nasabi ko...</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">"sana di mo na ginawa yun. Lalo lang akong nalito sa kung ano man itong nararamdaman ko para sayo. Alam kong mali ito pero di ko to kayang pigilan. mali ba ako?...hindi ko naman to ginusto eh., hindi ako ang pumili nito...ni wala ngang choice na binigay sa akin eh...wala...mahirap...sobra...may ibig sabihin ba iyong halik na yun?...bakit ka ba kasi pumayag sa hamon nila?...bakit?..."</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">...</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormalCxSpMiddle" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Ito ako ngayon nakaupo sa isang sulok ng kwarto at nakatingin sa kanya habang mahimbing siyang natutulog sa aking tabi. Pinagmamasdan ang kanyang maamong mukha. Isang maamong mukha na nakapagpabago ng lahat sa isang iglap lang.</div>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-1004118242555409162011-06-28T22:16:00.000-07:002011-06-28T22:38:03.099-07:00Naghihintay<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Matagal tagal na rin akong nakaupo sa silyang ito.<br />
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Napa-aga ata ako ng dating kung kaya't wala pa ang hinihintay ko. Sanay naman ako maghintay eh, ilang beses na rin kasi akong naupo dito sa pwestong ito para maghintay ng kung sinu man ang susundo sa akin.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Hindi ako mareklamong tao kaya kahit tirik na tirik ang sikat ng araw eh may ngiti pa rin sa aking mga labing masisilayan. Hindi nakakunot ang aking noo. Pinagpapawisan pero hindi ko na ito pinapansin, may dala naman akong panyong pamunas. <br />
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Ilan minuto pa ang lumipas at wala pa rin sya. Kaya ko pa naman maghintay kaya nilibang ko na lang muna ang sarili ko. Nagmasid ako ng mga taong napapadaan sa akin harapan. May iba't ibang katangian. May masaya, may malungkot. Iba ibang mukha.<br />
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Isang bata na hinahabol ang kanyang laruang bola ang napadaan sa harapan ko. Napangiti ako. Naalala ko nung bata ako. Musmos na walang muwang. Musmos na walang pinoproblema kung hindi ang kanilang laro at gutom. Musmos na ang nasusugatan lang ay ang balat. Musmos na ang tanging sakit lang na nararamdaman ay ang sugat sa katawan at ang palo ng nagmamahal na magulang.<br />
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Wala pa rin siya...<br />
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Maingay na dumaan naman ang isang barkada sa aking likuran. Nilingon ko sila dahil naalala ko ang aking mga kaibigan. Naalala ko ang mga biruan at harutan namin. Mga kulitan na nagpatatag sa aming samahan. Ang mga inuman na lalong nagbigay sa amin ng dahilan para maging malapit. Ang mga problemang bumuhos sa bawat sandali nito. Ang mga luha at tawa na aming pinagsaluhan. Sa mga panahong akala ko ay wala na ang lahat ngunit sila'y nandyan pa rin. Takbuhan, kakulitan, at karamay.<br />
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Ilang minuto pa ang dumaan. Wala pa rin ang aking hinihintay.<br />
<br />
Tinext ko sya kung nasaan na sya.<br />
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Ilang minuto pa ulit ngunit walang sagot. Napaisip ako, baka naligaw? baka natrapik? nasabi ko ba kung saang lugar? nandito lang naman ako, hindi ako umaalis sa kinalalagyan ko. hindi ba nya ako makita?</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Umupo sa tabi ko ang isnag magkasintahan. Mukhang galit ang isa at ang isa naman ay walang humpay ang pagso-sorry. Nangiti ang una at bigla silang nagyakap. Nagkukulitan na sila. Sweet silang dalawa. Nahiya ako nang mapatingin ako sa kanila. Naiinggit,. Hindi pa sya dumarating. <br />
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Napaisip ako ulit.<br />
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Nagsimulang umambon, wala akong payong na dala. Hindi naman sya ganoon kalakas kaya hindi na ako nag-atubiling umalis pa sa aking pwesto baka dumating na sya.<br />
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Maya maya pa'y may pumarang sasakyan sa may bandang di kalayuan. Alam kong sya na yun. Sya na ang hinihintay ko. Bumaba siya mula sa sasakyan at naglabas ng payong. Naglakad siya patungo sa aking direksyon ng may ngiti sa kanyang mukha. Akoy tumayo sa akin kinauupuan at dahan-dahang tumungo sa kanya. Habang ako'y papalapit ay unti-unti ring lumalakas ang buhos ng ulan na parang bang may sinasabi. <br />
<br />
Kaunting hakbang na lang ngunit bigla syang dumiretso papalayo sa akin. <br />
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Parang di man lang ako nakita. Ako'y natigilan...napatingin sa kanyang patutunguhan. Bumagsak ang aking luha kasabay ng pagbuhos ng ulan...di ko na alam kung ano ang gagawin...di ako makakilos...wala akong magawa kung hindi ang umiyak...<br />
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Tumigil na ang ulan...tumigil na rin ang aking pagluha...wala naman akong magagawa...wala...hanggang dun lang kami...yun lang un...makikita ko lang sya pero hindi sya sa akin patungo...makakasalubong ngunit hindi ako hihintuan...hanggang dun na lang...<br />
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Ilang saglit lang ang nakaraan wala na siya. At ako naman'y naiwan ulit dito sa aking kinalalagyan. Naglalakad patungo sa dating silya kong kinalalagyan. Sa isang silyang naging saksi sa lahat. Balik sa simula. <br />
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Balik sa paghihintay. Paghihintay sa kung sino man ang darating at ako'y susunduin. Ako'y maghihintay, kahit ako'y nasasaktan.<br />
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Paulit ulit. Maghihintay. May darating. Hindi pwede. Aalis. Makakalimot. Ako'y masasaktan<br />
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Ako'y maghihintay muli.</div>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-65953792978003662062011-06-26T06:54:00.000-07:002011-06-26T06:58:19.339-07:00...shorts...<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">this is just going to be a very short post since I am having another writer's block.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">well [insert name here]'s been running constantly on my mind., I have even dreamt about [insert name here] for two days., the first one was [insert name here]'s name and the second time was in person., all I could remember from the second dream was that [insert name here] was sitting on a chair and that we are talking., and then we bumped shoulders., hehehe., that's just about it., <strong>;)</strong>., i am so kilig!., </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">i really cant get [insert name here] out of my mind., from the time I wake up, when trying to take a nap, before going to sleep., (siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggghhhh!)., i've even thought of [insert name here] while attending the mass., <strong>;)</strong>., I have to stop this., i have to., I know i have to., I need to...</span>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-91385172451052923582011-06-25T09:48:00.000-07:002011-06-25T09:55:37.428-07:00...I just want to be...<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I have joined a 30 day song challenge in facebook where in you are to post music videos for 30 days., there are different categories per day., so my first day is today, and the category that was assigned for day 01 was my favorite song., I was taken aback a little bit by the category since I have a lot of favorite songs., I have liked many genre of songs that I really can't single out what I would post., but then...I just realized that I have a song that may summarize everything that I want to say., from the beginning., everything that I have been feeling., I just want to be happy., a song for me.,</span><br />
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<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><strong>Happy </strong></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><strong>by Leona Lewis</strong></span></div><br />
<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Someone once told me that you have to choose<br />
What you win or lose<br />
You can't have everything<br />
Don't you take chances<br />
You might feel the pain<br />
Don't you love in vain<br />
Cause love won't set you free<br />
I can't stand by the side<br />
And watch this life pass me by<br />
So unhappy<br />
But safe as could be</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">So what if it hurts me?<br />
So what if I break down?<br />
So what if this world just throws me off the edge<br />
My feet run out of ground<br />
I gotta find my place<br />
I wanna hear my sound<br />
Don't care about all the pain in front of me<br />
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah<br />
Just wanna be happy, yeah</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Holding on tightly<br />
Just can't let it go<br />
Just trying to play my role<br />
Slowly disappear, ohh<br />
But all these days, they feel like they're the same<br />
Just different faces, different names<br />
Get me out of here<br />
I can't stand by your side, ohh no<br />
And watch this life pass me by, pass me by</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">So what if it hurts me?<br />
So what if I break down?<br />
So what if this world just throws me off the edge<br />
My feet run out of ground<br />
I gotta find my place<br />
I wanna hear my sound<br />
on't care about all the pain in front of me<br />
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">So any turns that I can't see,<br />
like I'm a stranger on this road<br />
But don't say victim<br />
Don't say anything</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">So what if it hurts me?<br />
So what if I break down?<br />
So what if this world just throws me off the edge<br />
My feet run out of ground<br />
I gotta find my place<br />
I wanna hear my sound<br />
Don't care about all the pain in front of me</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I just wanna be happy<br />
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy<br />
I just wanna be, ohh<br />
I just wanna be happy<br />
Ohh, happy </span><br />
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</div>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-38457157751936509192011-06-22T09:19:00.000-07:002011-06-24T01:54:19.615-07:00...apologizing...<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">i thought that this "<i>thing</i>" about <i>[insert name here]</i> will not be much of a big deal for me since this isn't the first time that I have secretly fallen for someone., by the way i am very good at it., hiding my feelings for someone., hehehe., <b>;)</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">rather showing <i>[insert name here]</i> my feelings I have made subtle moves to show <i>[insert name here]</i> that something is up., hehehe., schemings that led into ME, falling even more deeply with <i>[insert name here]</i>.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">now i'm confused with everything., confused of whether this is just an infatuation or is it something beyond that., confused as to whether this is right or wrong (but the fact that I know that it is really wrong makes it more difficult)., i know <i>[insert name here]</i> and I will never have anything more than what we have right now because <i>[insert name here]</i> has someone., i'll just have to accept the fact that <i>[insert name here]</i> and I are just friends., friends is all we ever could be and that's just about it.,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">i won't confess to <i>[insert name here]</i> cause it is bending the rules (here i go again with the rules!)., hehehe., but i'm happy that i am having a great time whenever we are together (cannot mention how we are having a great time since it may exploit <i>[insert name here]'s </i>identity)., hehehehe., <b>;)</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">if ever <i>[insert name here]</i> is reading this., </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><blockquote><div style="text-align: left;">please never mind everything i just said., i am not in the position to beg for you since there are circumstances that I have to consider and also, you have to consider., <b>sorry</b> if I am not being vocal., <b>sorry</b> if i can't express this in front of you., <b>sorry</b>., I am really very <b>sorry</b>., and also <b>sorry that I am feeling this way towards you</b>., i am very <b>sorry</b>.,</div></blockquote></span><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table></div>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-40601394356373796982011-06-20T03:56:00.000-07:002011-06-20T19:34:05.235-07:00...can't get enough...<div style="text-align: center;"><b><i><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">"I'm in love, sweet love<br />
Hear me calling out your name, I feel no shame<br />
I'm in love, sweet love<br />
Don't you ever go away, it'll always be this way"</span></i></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">"But I don't care what they say <br />
I'm in love with you <br />
They try to pull me away <br />
But they don't know the truth"</span></i></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">"I'm on the edge of glory, <br />
And I'm hanging on a moment of truth, <br />
Out on the edge of glory, <br />
And I'm hanging on a moment with you" </span></i></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">"Why oh Why, Do I feel this way?<br />
When I'm with you I feel so alive<br />
Why oh Why, will I hide away<br />
I can't help it<br />
I'm falling in love with you"</span></i></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">"Maybe, it's wrong to say please love me too<br />
'Cause I know you'll never do<br />
Somebody else is waiting there inside for you<br />
Maybe it's wrong to love you more each day"</span></i></b><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">"My heart is playing tricks on me<br />
And it's building bricks on me<br />
I can't break through<br />
And I can't face you"</span></i></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">"So I hid inside<br />
(Till) I almost died<br />
Yes I hid inside and I cried<br />
A loving heart in a sensitive man<br />
Hiding inside myself"</span></i></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">"Wherever you go, whatever you do<br />
I will be right here waiting for you<br />
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks<br />
I will be right here waiting for you"</span></i></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1009242712016124349.post-40471603915320311152011-06-18T07:11:00.000-07:002011-06-18T07:16:31.399-07:00...secretly inlove...<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I really don't like to admit this here but I am secretly inlove with someone right now., i can't really mention any names here because I am not in the position to post any names without the consent of the persons involved (and for the fact that I am afraid...remember bending the rules?).,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">i have been with this person for not a very long time but come to think of it I never actually noticed [<em>insert the name here</em>] until lately., <strong>;)</strong></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">this post won't be that long since I might spill out details and [<em>insert the name here</em>] might find out!., i am just bothered today because I can't get [<em>insert the name here</em>] out of my mind., i think of [<em>insert the name here</em>] everytime, at night, before sleeping, when I wake up in the morning., haaaaayyyyy!!., i can't get enough of [<em>insert the name here</em>].,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I can't tell [<em>insert the name here</em>] that I have feelings., I'll just stay here and be an admirer., hehehe., <strong>;)</strong></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">that's it for now., i think i'll have to create a new blog so that i can let everything spill out., hehehe., <strong>;)</strong></span>Jhayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07324375644964960384noreply@blogger.com0