Last time I've posted here was I think last year...an entry that I requested my friend to post for me...if my memory serves me correctly the post was mostly about me saying goodbye to someone...
Well 7 months have passed by and here I am...getting back together with my pen and paper (metaphorically speaking)...
What to write??? What to write???
Except for the fact that I am in a new company now...nothing really changed...still the same old me...
Since I left my previous company...i know that I am leaving behind a lot of thing...a lot of memories that I have shared with my friends...the people who truly knew who I was...not the one I am pretending to be...
Emo again?...Well hell yeah!!!
I really don't know what's gotten into me again lately...but I know I have been like this before...not to my amusement, i have been feeling down for the nth time...
It's like i don't know how to feel the word H-A-P-P-Y...yes! my exterior looks very jolly and very much smiley smiley...but I know deep inside that that is not what i'm genuinely feeling...
I just don't want to talk about these since I know that it wouldn't even nudge someone and come talk to me for a minute...that sincere talk where i can just let everything out..every single sigh that I have...
I don't really know...I don't know what I want at the moment...Maybe if someone would approach me, to try and reach out, I know I would just push them away cause I really don't know what or why...such a contradiction to what I was previously saying above...
I just really don't know...just don't...i hope I can find answers in the coming days...ai hope that someone could shed some light so that I can see where I am headed...what I want...what I really long for...cause slowly my insides are deteriorating...it eats itself up...slowly...and painfully...and fast...really fast...
Tuesday, 13 August 2013
Monday, 10 December 2012
Huli
I shouldn't be doing this right now because I am not supposed to...This has never been right...and it will never be right...I knew it right from the very beginning...
Kung tatanungin mo ako kung saan ako..."SAYA" o sa "TAMA"...ang sasabihin ko sayo ay sa SAYA...sa isang kadahilanan...kasi masaya ka(ako)...you're happy and you don't care what other people would say or think...you don't care if other people belittle you for something that makes you happy...
"I think, if you really know something is right, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. You have to be true to yourself. You may be alone in what you believe, but to do anything else is wrong."
but there is a big BUT that needs to be considered...yes you are happy but aren't you going to make someone or the ones you love sad?...that's the question I have always been asking myself...if I choose my happiness wouldn't the ones I love suffer?...
Minsan gawin mo man kung ano ang “mas tama”, alam mo sa sarili mo na kung ano ang naramdaman ay siyang laging “mas totoo”…
CHiCO LOCO
I've tried to stay away but I really can't...napagsabihan na nga rin ako ng mga kaibigan ko na wag ko na ituloy ang kung ano man ito...maghanap nung may posibilidad...ung may chance ba...hindi ung aasa na lang ako at hanggang pag-asa na lang ang gagawin ko...nakasanayan ko na rin kasi ang ganito...hindi ko rin alam kung bakit palagi na lang ako bumabalik sa kung anu mang ginagawa kong ito...at ang mahirap pa...iisang sitwasyon lang ang lagi kong kinalalagyan...ni hindi man lang ako nakakawala sa paulit-ulit na mga pangyayaring ito...
Sabi nila sa akin paano mo malalaman kung hindi mo ita-try...pero paano ko ita-try kung malaki ang tayang nakalaan?...tulad sa poker...isang malaking risk ang pag taya mo ng all-in kung alam mo naman na yung hawak mong cards eh hindi ka naman talaga maipapanalo...kung i-try ko man...meron ba naman akong mapapala...oo sasaya ako pero sa bandang dulo ako pa rin naman ung walang mapapala...hehehe...
Oo gusto ko malaman ang magiging reaksyon mo kung malaman mo pero parang ayaw ko na lang din malaman kasi ayaw kong ma-disappoint...hindi naman sa umaasa ako pero nandun na yun eh...hindi na mawawala na aasa at aasa ka pa rin kahit papaano...
Gusto ko na maging close tayo...pero hindi ko rin yun magawa...nagawa...hindi ko alam kung paano mag-rereact sayo...hindi ko alam kung paano makikipag-usap sa iyo ng hindi ako nag-iisip ng mga bagay bagay...gusto ko mag start ng isang conversation pero lagi ako napipigilan ng kung sinu mang nasa utak ko...
"Sandali, wala talaga, wala eh. Kung meron mang dahilan 'to, katulad ng ipinipilit mo, hindi ko alam. Hindi ko talaga alam. Oo, gusto kita, 'yun lang ang alam ko. Kung bakit, kailan nagsimula, papaano, hindi ko alam. Ni hindi ko nga alam kung bakit sa lahat ng tao, eh ikaw pa, sa'yo pa. Paano mo ba malalaman kung paano, kung kailan, kung bakit?"
Out of respect, I had wanted to share my fears and my doubts. I was quickly learning that you can only share what others want to hear. Anything else needs to be kept in a locked place inside you, even if it festers and churns and finally makes you crazy.
Oh sure, they loved the boy I pretended to be; the good boy, the 'cause no trouble' boy, the normal boy. In my warm false cocoon of this love, I had believed they'd love the hidden boy, the boy who cried at night for just a touch, just a smile, just a recognition.
to that someone...sorry...sorry i haven't got the strength to face you and tell you the things that I really wanted to say...things that has been kept secret by those who are close to me...fearing that when everything has been revealed things will greatly change...
*some paragraphs are taken from a story I have read...thanks to the author...
Tuesday, 8 May 2012
Crossing out one out of many...
Annyeong Haseyo!!!!!
this is what is keeping me busy nowadays...
it has been my dream to learn another language ever since I have started working...i don't really know why but this is what I want...and now that I have the time and the resources to add a little bit of new things under my resume I took the time to learn the language of something they call "Infinitely Yours!"...yes!!! that Korea!!
Korean is their official language in Korea and also Mandarin...but mostly Korean...worldwide, it is said there are millions who are speaking this language...many of the millions who speak korean are those who are affiliated directly to the country (merchants, businessmen, and those who have married a Korean) and the remaining are those, like me, that are just learning the language just because of pure interest...
too formal of a post, right?...hehehe...it is just out of the blue when I decided to learn the language...I was watching something in the net and then I said to myself that I want to learn Korean...
what I did learn first is how to write Hangul...korea'shand writing system...hehehe...that was just pure wrong as to what I have learned from a source in the net...it said that just like a child, that learned how to speak first rather than writing, I should start to learn to speak first...too late for that since I learned the writing system fast...hehehe...
so far, I have learned quite a few things...like saying Hi...Good Night...Good Morning...Nice to Meet you...and the basic stuffs...but I want more...hehehe...thanks to our very reliable youtube and google i can learn more without even paying for the lessons...hehehe...
Oh! I just remembered I need to watch the lesson for today!...
Bye!!!! or should I say...Annyeonghi Kasayo!!!! Annyeong Hashimnika!!! ^_^
Btw: I also wanted to be a member of a popular Korean boy group is also the reason why I wanted to learn the language...hehehe...
it has been my dream to learn another language ever since I have started working...i don't really know why but this is what I want...and now that I have the time and the resources to add a little bit of new things under my resume I took the time to learn the language of something they call "Infinitely Yours!"...yes!!! that Korea!!
Korean is their official language in Korea and also Mandarin...but mostly Korean...worldwide, it is said there are millions who are speaking this language...many of the millions who speak korean are those who are affiliated directly to the country (merchants, businessmen, and those who have married a Korean) and the remaining are those, like me, that are just learning the language just because of pure interest...
too formal of a post, right?...hehehe...it is just out of the blue when I decided to learn the language...I was watching something in the net and then I said to myself that I want to learn Korean...
what I did learn first is how to write Hangul...korea'shand writing system...hehehe...that was just pure wrong as to what I have learned from a source in the net...it said that just like a child, that learned how to speak first rather than writing, I should start to learn to speak first...too late for that since I learned the writing system fast...hehehe...
so far, I have learned quite a few things...like saying Hi...Good Night...Good Morning...Nice to Meet you...and the basic stuffs...but I want more...hehehe...thanks to our very reliable youtube and google i can learn more without even paying for the lessons...hehehe...
Oh! I just remembered I need to watch the lesson for today!...
Bye!!!! or should I say...Annyeonghi Kasayo!!!! Annyeong Hashimnika!!! ^_^
Btw: I also wanted to be a member of a popular Korean boy group is also the reason why I wanted to learn the language...hehehe...
Friday, 27 April 2012
Sa Tinagal ng Panahon...
Haayyyy....sa tinagal tagal na panahon eh nasimulan ko na ulit itong pagsusulat dito., marami na ang nangyari simula nung naging iba ang mundong ginagalawan ko., maraming nagbago., may mga nawala., may mga dumaan., may mag dumating., merong mga nagpaalam., merong mga andyan pa rin., may paparating., at kung anu ano pang mga bagay bagay., buti na lang kinakaya ko pa itong mga ito.,
Kung sa bagay ibang tao na nga naman ako ngayun., hindi na ako ung tulad ng dati na panay ka-emo-han lang ang nalalaman sa bawat araw na ginawa., ahehehe., sa totoo lang meron pa rin namang parte sa akin na malungkot pero natatabunan na yun ng mga bagay na alam kong higit na importante., ahehehe.,
BUHAY --- tungkol sa buhay buhay ko., sa totoo lang ganun pa rin naman sya., pero ngayon mas matino na akong mag-isip ng tungkol sa mga bagay bagay., i mean, mas matured na ako kumpara sa dati kong sarili., naiisip ko na ngayon na hindi lang sa akin umiikot ang mundong ginagalawan ko., may mga taong mas matindi pa ang pinag-dadaanan kumpara sa mga napagdadaanan ko., hehe., siguro nga sa edad kong ito eh nararapat lang na mas maging mature na ako mag-isip., hehehe.,
PANGARAP --- hehehe., mataas pa rin ako mangarap hanggang sa ngayun., sino ba ang hindi., bukod sa libre eh masarap pa ang feeling kapag nangangarap ka dahil abot mo lahat., ahehehe., sa ngayon alam kong hindi ko pa kayang marating ung mga pangarap na yun pero balang araw eh makakahanap ako ng paraan para marating ko yun., alam kong hindi sa lahat ng oras eh magiging madali ang pag-abot ko sa mga yun pero alam ko rin naman sa sarili ko nakakayanin ko rin yun balang araw., tutal nagsisimula pa lang naman ako, so matagal tagal na panahon pa ang bubunuin ko., sa ngayon ok na muna ako dito kung nasan ako., hindi ko naman sinasabing mag-se-settle na lang ako sa kung anu ang nandyan, ang gusto ko lang is ung tipong alam kong handa na akong sumabak sa kung anu man ang haharapin ko bago ako magsimula.,
RESPONSIBILIDAD --- ito ang mahirap dito eh., hindi ko kasi kayang i-evaluate ang sarili ko sa kung responsable ba ako o hindi., basta ang alam ko lang eh saktong responsible lang ako., tamad nga kasi ako., ayoko ring pagmukhain ung sarili kong bida sa aspetong ito kaya pass tayo dito., ahehehe.,
KAIBIGAN --- sabi ko nga dati., parang hindi ko kakayanin na mabuhay na walang kaibigan., hindi ako sure kung isang araw malaman ko na lang na wala na pala akong mga kaibigan., lalo na kung malaman nila ang mundong ginagalawan ko., pero ngayon...alam na alam ko na marami akong kaibigan., maraming marami., hindi ko man sila nakakasama ng madalas alam kong nandyan lang sila., makakausap., makakaramay., (ayan nagiging drama na...)., pero sa totoo lang hindi ko inakalang mapapapasok ko sila sa isang mundong gawa ko., sa mundong ako lang dati ang nakapaloob., tinanggap nila ang mundo ko tulad ng pagtanggap ko sa mundo nila., kung baga sa Venn Diagram merong mga parts na talagang mag-o-over lap., hehehe., sa tinagal ng panahon marami na ang nagpaalam., merong mga nakaka-alala pa rin at meron din naman mga hindi na., hehehe., kilala nyo na kung sinu kayo., merong mga dumating na bago na kahit alam kong mas nakaka-angat sila sa akin eh alam kong hindi nila tinitignan kung nasaang posisyon ako.,
PAG-IBIG --- (lablayp) kung baga., ito ung pinaka-masaklap na parte eh., pero siguro sa ngayun hindi ko na to pinapansin., mas busy ako sa pagpapatakbo ng buhay ko bilang single., sa ngayon nasasabi ko sa sarili ko na mas masaya ako., kahit na paminsan minsan eh makikita mo akong nagmumuni muni sa kawalan., hehehe., hindi mo naman kasi maalis sa isang tao na umasa., umasang mayroong nakalaan para sa kanya., hehehe., ito drama na naman., hehehe.,
Kung sa bagay ibang tao na nga naman ako ngayun., hindi na ako ung tulad ng dati na panay ka-emo-han lang ang nalalaman sa bawat araw na ginawa., ahehehe., sa totoo lang meron pa rin namang parte sa akin na malungkot pero natatabunan na yun ng mga bagay na alam kong higit na importante., ahehehe.,
BUHAY --- tungkol sa buhay buhay ko., sa totoo lang ganun pa rin naman sya., pero ngayon mas matino na akong mag-isip ng tungkol sa mga bagay bagay., i mean, mas matured na ako kumpara sa dati kong sarili., naiisip ko na ngayon na hindi lang sa akin umiikot ang mundong ginagalawan ko., may mga taong mas matindi pa ang pinag-dadaanan kumpara sa mga napagdadaanan ko., hehe., siguro nga sa edad kong ito eh nararapat lang na mas maging mature na ako mag-isip., hehehe.,
PANGARAP --- hehehe., mataas pa rin ako mangarap hanggang sa ngayun., sino ba ang hindi., bukod sa libre eh masarap pa ang feeling kapag nangangarap ka dahil abot mo lahat., ahehehe., sa ngayon alam kong hindi ko pa kayang marating ung mga pangarap na yun pero balang araw eh makakahanap ako ng paraan para marating ko yun., alam kong hindi sa lahat ng oras eh magiging madali ang pag-abot ko sa mga yun pero alam ko rin naman sa sarili ko nakakayanin ko rin yun balang araw., tutal nagsisimula pa lang naman ako, so matagal tagal na panahon pa ang bubunuin ko., sa ngayon ok na muna ako dito kung nasan ako., hindi ko naman sinasabing mag-se-settle na lang ako sa kung anu ang nandyan, ang gusto ko lang is ung tipong alam kong handa na akong sumabak sa kung anu man ang haharapin ko bago ako magsimula.,
RESPONSIBILIDAD --- ito ang mahirap dito eh., hindi ko kasi kayang i-evaluate ang sarili ko sa kung responsable ba ako o hindi., basta ang alam ko lang eh saktong responsible lang ako., tamad nga kasi ako., ayoko ring pagmukhain ung sarili kong bida sa aspetong ito kaya pass tayo dito., ahehehe.,
KAIBIGAN --- sabi ko nga dati., parang hindi ko kakayanin na mabuhay na walang kaibigan., hindi ako sure kung isang araw malaman ko na lang na wala na pala akong mga kaibigan., lalo na kung malaman nila ang mundong ginagalawan ko., pero ngayon...alam na alam ko na marami akong kaibigan., maraming marami., hindi ko man sila nakakasama ng madalas alam kong nandyan lang sila., makakausap., makakaramay., (ayan nagiging drama na...)., pero sa totoo lang hindi ko inakalang mapapapasok ko sila sa isang mundong gawa ko., sa mundong ako lang dati ang nakapaloob., tinanggap nila ang mundo ko tulad ng pagtanggap ko sa mundo nila., kung baga sa Venn Diagram merong mga parts na talagang mag-o-over lap., hehehe., sa tinagal ng panahon marami na ang nagpaalam., merong mga nakaka-alala pa rin at meron din naman mga hindi na., hehehe., kilala nyo na kung sinu kayo., merong mga dumating na bago na kahit alam kong mas nakaka-angat sila sa akin eh alam kong hindi nila tinitignan kung nasaang posisyon ako.,
PAG-IBIG --- (lablayp) kung baga., ito ung pinaka-masaklap na parte eh., pero siguro sa ngayun hindi ko na to pinapansin., mas busy ako sa pagpapatakbo ng buhay ko bilang single., sa ngayon nasasabi ko sa sarili ko na mas masaya ako., kahit na paminsan minsan eh makikita mo akong nagmumuni muni sa kawalan., hehehe., hindi mo naman kasi maalis sa isang tao na umasa., umasang mayroong nakalaan para sa kanya., hehehe., ito drama na naman., hehehe.,
Sunday, 8 April 2012
A Moment of Silence...
Today as everybody is celebrating the resurrection of our Almighty God, we on the other hand is grieving for the passing of one of our beloved relative.
We were all stricken by the news. We thought that Tito has been recovering well from his illness. We all thought that he can surely overcome this obstacle in front of his like he always did. But all our guesses were wrong. We have not anticipated this coming. They said that he was doing well and that in no time he will recover. But then it happened.
I didn't know just what to do but to give them the support they needed. I could not give comforting talks and words to them, all I can give them is hugs and the tears we shared.
Yes, I've been there (when I lost my grandmother) but still everything is really hard to handle. It is never really easy losing someone in your life especially someone who has been there for you always. It is never easy how you can just let go of everything that both you and that person shared.
To my Ate Em who lost the first man that she ever loved, her father, let me just say this. I'll be here if you need someone to talk to. I'll be here if you need someone to share your tears. I'll always be here, as your friend and as your cousin.
To my Tito, you can now rest peacefully with our Lord. Please watch over Tita, Ate Em, Faye, Choy, Micah, Junie and most especially Haley. We will miss you...
We were all stricken by the news. We thought that Tito has been recovering well from his illness. We all thought that he can surely overcome this obstacle in front of his like he always did. But all our guesses were wrong. We have not anticipated this coming. They said that he was doing well and that in no time he will recover. But then it happened.
I didn't know just what to do but to give them the support they needed. I could not give comforting talks and words to them, all I can give them is hugs and the tears we shared.
Yes, I've been there (when I lost my grandmother) but still everything is really hard to handle. It is never really easy losing someone in your life especially someone who has been there for you always. It is never easy how you can just let go of everything that both you and that person shared.
To my Ate Em who lost the first man that she ever loved, her father, let me just say this. I'll be here if you need someone to talk to. I'll be here if you need someone to share your tears. I'll always be here, as your friend and as your cousin.
To my Tito, you can now rest peacefully with our Lord. Please watch over Tita, Ate Em, Faye, Choy, Micah, Junie and most especially Haley. We will miss you...
Tuesday, 18 October 2011
...playing with numbers...
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Monday, 17 October 2011
On dreams...
Dreams...in wikipedia dreams are successions of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations that occur involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep
Dreams mainly occur in the rapid-eye movement (REM) stage of sleep—when brain activity is high.
Dreams are a connection to the human subconscious. They can range from normal and ordinary to overly surreal and bizarre. Dreams can often at times make a creative thought occur to the person or give a sense of inspiration.
Dreamers are usually not self-aware in their dreams; thus the dreams may seem very real to them while asleep.
Panaginip sa tagalog...lahat tayo nananaginip...tulog o gising...madalas ako sa ganitong estado...parating nananaginip...
Kilala nyo na siguro kung sino ang napapanaginipan ko kaya hindi ko na kailangan pang banggitin pa kung sinu sya...basta ang alam ko sya ang kadalasang laman ng mga panaginip ko...makailang beses ko na rin syang napanaginipan kahit na hindi naman sya ang huling nasa isipan ko bago ako matulog...
...napanaginipan nanaman kita...di ko na matandaan...basta ang alam ko nagtatawanan tayo...(oo patay na patay ako sa tawa mo., ahehehe., di ko rin alam kung bakit eh., basta alam ko gustong gusto ko ung tawa mo.,)
...ilang araw nanaman kitang napanaginipan...(medyo nakakalimutan ko kasi ung mga panaginip ko eh!)...natatandaan ko dun sa panaginip para tayong nasa classroom tapos dumating ka...tapos ang alam ko may tinanong ako sa nun eh...tapos bigla kayong umalis ni [kulit] tapos baba ng hagdan...sumunod lang ung tingin ko sayo...tapos kinausap ko ung classmate ko nung college (na nasa panaginip din)...ang sabi ko sa kanya di ko na kaya...
...napanaginipan nanaman kita nung isang araw...pumayag ka daw na isama ako sa pupuntahan mo...(basta ayun...too much detail na kasi kapag sinabi ko pa kung saan)...
...ang alam ko dalawang bese kitang napanaginipan kanina di ko lang natandaan ung una...(adik lang?)...kaya ung panagalawa ni-save ko sa CP ko...ganito daw yun...nasa [lugar] daw tayong dalawa tapos parang pauwi na tayo (sa kung saan man galing)...tapos may bago raw akong gamit sabi mo sa akin patingin edi binigay ko sayo...tapos sumakay na daw ako ng jeep tapos ikaw hindi sumakay...nakita ko na hindi ka sumakay tapos naalala ko rin na ung gamit ko nasa iyo pa...bumaba ako ng jeep tapos binalikan kita tapos parang tinatanong ko sayo kung nasan na ung gamit ko tapos niloloko mo ako na wala sayo...yun pala nilagay mo sa bag mo...(nagkasya ung malaking gamit ko dun sa bag mo., ahehehe)...
Dreams mainly occur in the rapid-eye movement (REM) stage of sleep—when brain activity is high.
Dreams are a connection to the human subconscious. They can range from normal and ordinary to overly surreal and bizarre. Dreams can often at times make a creative thought occur to the person or give a sense of inspiration.
Dreamers are usually not self-aware in their dreams; thus the dreams may seem very real to them while asleep.
Panaginip sa tagalog...lahat tayo nananaginip...tulog o gising...madalas ako sa ganitong estado...parating nananaginip...
Kilala nyo na siguro kung sino ang napapanaginipan ko kaya hindi ko na kailangan pang banggitin pa kung sinu sya...basta ang alam ko sya ang kadalasang laman ng mga panaginip ko...makailang beses ko na rin syang napanaginipan kahit na hindi naman sya ang huling nasa isipan ko bago ako matulog...
...napanaginipan nanaman kita...di ko na matandaan...basta ang alam ko nagtatawanan tayo...(oo patay na patay ako sa tawa mo., ahehehe., di ko rin alam kung bakit eh., basta alam ko gustong gusto ko ung tawa mo.,)
...ilang araw nanaman kitang napanaginipan...(medyo nakakalimutan ko kasi ung mga panaginip ko eh!)...natatandaan ko dun sa panaginip para tayong nasa classroom tapos dumating ka...tapos ang alam ko may tinanong ako sa nun eh...tapos bigla kayong umalis ni [kulit] tapos baba ng hagdan...sumunod lang ung tingin ko sayo...tapos kinausap ko ung classmate ko nung college (na nasa panaginip din)...ang sabi ko sa kanya di ko na kaya...
...napanaginipan nanaman kita nung isang araw...pumayag ka daw na isama ako sa pupuntahan mo...(basta ayun...too much detail na kasi kapag sinabi ko pa kung saan)...
...ang alam ko dalawang bese kitang napanaginipan kanina di ko lang natandaan ung una...(adik lang?)...kaya ung panagalawa ni-save ko sa CP ko...ganito daw yun...nasa [lugar] daw tayong dalawa tapos parang pauwi na tayo (sa kung saan man galing)...tapos may bago raw akong gamit sabi mo sa akin patingin edi binigay ko sayo...tapos sumakay na daw ako ng jeep tapos ikaw hindi sumakay...nakita ko na hindi ka sumakay tapos naalala ko rin na ung gamit ko nasa iyo pa...bumaba ako ng jeep tapos binalikan kita tapos parang tinatanong ko sayo kung nasan na ung gamit ko tapos niloloko mo ako na wala sayo...yun pala nilagay mo sa bag mo...(nagkasya ung malaking gamit ko dun sa bag mo., ahehehe)...
...napanaginipan nanaman kita...bakit ba kasi ayaw mong mawala, pati sa panaginip ko ayaw mong mawala...Hindi ko alam kung hanggang sa panaginip ikaw pa rin ang iniisip ko pero hindi na kasi tama...ilang beses na kasi kitang napapanaginipan...yung ilang beses na yun eh hindi naman pare-pareho...meron time na yung panaginip ko ay ikaw lang at mga taong di ko kilala...pero ung kanina naman parang nasa isang school tapos marami akong kakilala...(baka ipapakilala na kita sa kanila? jokes)...ewan ko ba...bakit ikaw napapanaginipan ko?...
...napanaginipan ulit kita...parang galing tayo sa mall/ospital tapos kasama natin si [master], basta ikaw nagda-drive...pagdating natin dun sa pupuntahan bumaba kayo...tapos meron akong sinabi dun sa isang kasama natin...baka magalit ka...
...nung isang linggo lang napanaginipan kita ulit...ang nangyari naman eh si [Stuagin on] eh inaagaw sa akin si [insert name here](ikaw to!) at si [miss baet]...ahehehe...wala lang...
tapos nung saturday lang napanaginipan ulit kita...nasa ospital daw si [kulit] tapos parang naiinis ka sa akin di ko alam kung bakit...ayun....parang may something between the two of you eh...ahehehe...
Speaking of dreams...ilang beses na akong nananaginip ng puro ahas...dun nga nagsimula ung pagiging takot ko sa ahas kahit sa TV ko lang nakikita...basta ayaw ko...so nag search ako tungkol dun at ito ang nakita ko...
To see a snake or be bitten by one in your dream, signifies hidden fears and worries that are threatening you. Your dream may be alerting you to something in your waking life that you are not aware of or that has not yet surfaced. Alternatively, the snake may be seen as phallic and thus symbolize temptation, dangerous and forbidden sexuality. In particular, to see a snake on your bed, suggests that you are feeling sexually overpowered or sexually threatened. You may be inexperienced, nervous or just unable to keep up. If you are afraid of the snake, then it signifies your fears of sex, intimacy or commitment. The snake may also refer to a person around you who is callous, ruthless, and can't be trusted. As a positive symbol, snakes represent healing, transformation, knowledge and wisdom. It is indicative of self-renewal and positive change.
To see the skin of a snake in your dream, represents protection from illnesses.
To see a snake with a head on each end in your dream, suggests that you are being pulled in two different directions. You are feeling overburdened and do not know whether you are coming or going. Your actions are counterproductive. Perhaps the dream represents some complicated love triangle. Alternatively, the dream signifies your desires for children. If you see a two-headed snake in your dream, then it refers to cooperation and teamwork in some relationship.
To dream that you are eating a live snake, indicates that you are looking for intimacy or sexual fulfillment. Your life is lacking sensuality and passion. If you vomit or throw up the snake, then it may mean that you are overcompensating for something that is lacking in your life. You may be rushing into something.
isa pang bagay na related sa dreams ay ang daydreaming...na according to wikipedia again...(para kunyari matalino)...
A daydream is a visionary fantasy, especially one of happy, pleasant thoughts, hopes or ambitions, imagined as coming to pass, and experienced while awake.
magaling ako dito...as in...kahit dilat na dilat ako eh todo todong pagdadaydream na ang ginagawa ko...pati nga lang ung paglalakad ko minsan pauwi sa bahay may kasamang daydream...kahit minsan din kasama ko mga kaibigan ko bigla bigla na lang ako magdadaydream...kung subject lang yan noong college malamang naging Summa Cum Laude ako...o kaya kung profession yan baka isa na ako sa mga pinakamagaling dyan...ahehehe...
o sya...kailangan ko pa ulit managinip...see you there...ahehehe...
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